tying the knot.

No, I'm not getting married. But I read numerous blogs, am updated on Facebook relationship statuses, and know of people who either are married, are getting married in the future, or have just gotten married. And to me, it's just a little weird. But let me say it again, this is what I think and feel is right for me.

I'm not even entirely sure why I'm writing about this in the first place. I've never had a boyfriend or been on a date. For some reason, even contemplating marriage before I have a college degree, living space, and stable job is weird. I'm sure and I know it works for some people. We're all different, and we have different wants, needs, and desires in life. Maybe I'm a little old fashioned. Maybe it's because I am single. Maybe it's because in the ideal world, I'd like to stay young and carefree forever. But it just seems so young to be married at 19 or 20 and have to deal with decisions like buying appliances or buying your spouse's clothes. I'm not one of those people who wants to travel the world and see things before getting married. I don't even like traveling by myself. But just for some reason, marriage seems like a big deal. A big deal that I'm just not ready for.

And I think God agrees with my personal decision. Yes, at times I wonder why I'm single. But then I also think about the extra stuff that comes with relationships. I'm not talking about cheating. I'm talking about splitting time between family, one's significant other, school, and work. Having to juggle chores, manage budgets, and cook/clean each night. Having to save and spend money on things my parents do for me. I mean, school itself is a big enough job for me to tackle at this point in my life! And because big changes can be hard for me to deal with (big shocker, right?), I'm glad and thankful that I have this time in my life when I can focus on my relationship with Christ. I read somewhere awhile back that God wants us to be strong in Him before we become involved with romantic relationships. And over these past few years, I'm starting to believe it more and more.