***Today I'm joining Overcome the Lie's blog tour to share a lie that I am in the process of overcoming. Why? Because Jesus overcame the grave for me.***
I'm a thinker.
No wait, I'm an over-thinker.
You see, there are people that think about things and then let them roll off their shoulders. There are people who skip that thinking step and let everything roll off their shoulders. And then there's me. I over-think everything. Every possible outcome is played out in my head; whether it be what I'll say when I'm praying, what could happen at a staff meeting, or what will happen on a field trip with the little kiddos.
I'm not sure if this is an introvert thing or just a me thing, but it's a thing that has slowly been taking over my life.
Most of you know that three months ago I went from student teacher to preschool teacher. Somehow during that time I've experienced a dramatic change in confidence with this new job status. And it's not a growth in confidence. Nope, it's a slow dwindling of my confidence.
And you know what it's from? It's because I've been playing out every possible scenario, worrying about what could happen to the kids because I'm now responsible for them. I'm responsible for them on the playground, during meal times, during field trips and the like. And as the over-prepared Type A introvert that I am, I've over-thought every possible thing that could happen in these situations.
What if someone chokes? What if one of the parents comes storming in the classroom? What if the unthinkable happens and I lose a kid?
I'm sure all of you are wondering if any of that has actually happened--and no, no it hasn't. But that hasn't stopped me from thinking about it, worrying that it might, and using "preparedness" as an excuse.
But it's not. Worry is the reason. Fear is the reason. Sin is the reason. I've let sin win me over, letting it seep into my brain, giving me reasons why I should let it take over my mind.
And now that I've identified the reason, I want it to stop. And I want it to stop now.
I want to be ruled by Him, not sin. I want to overcome this worry, these fears, this doubt and trust Him instead. Lean on Him and remember that He provides, He protects, and that He is with me all of the time. 24/7. Inside and outside of the classroom.
I am overcoming over-thinking and becoming a believer. A believer that thinks about His goodness, not the what ifs in life. I believe in Him, His goodness, and His faithfulness and I want to think about that more than sin.
Sin doesn't win. Jesus wins.
And I know it's not just a coincidence that this song came on Pandora as I was writing this post. Nope, this was all a part of His plan. His great, magnificent plan.