January 19, 2015
BACK TO MY ROOTS.
ONE OF THE THINGS THAT'S BEEN BOTHERING ME MOST IN THE BLOGWORLD LATELY IS THE LACK OF HONEST AND PERSONAL POSTS.
Not too long ago I was going through the blogs I follow, I found myself pointing fingers at certain bloggers who had/were moving away from the personal posts. And I found myself unfollowing them because those are the kinds of posts I enjoy most.
But then when I was going through my posts, I realized that I was guilty of following that trend, too. I don't blame anyone for moving away from the raw hearty posts. After all, they take guts, not to mention the time it takes to write them out.
But while it may be harder to write, I want to push myself to go back to my roots every now and then. I want to write from my heart, even if it hurts, seems repetitive, or boring.
SO WHAT IS MY HEART FEELING RIGHT NOW?
My heart feels all the feelings right now. Not to put myself on a pedestal, but I've been focusing most of my energy right now on God and how I can challenge myself in my faith, work, and life in general. I have this odd desire to grow and change and have been focusing on ways to do that. I've been thinking less and less about relationships (less does not equal not at all, however, because let's face it, there are times when I just waaaaant a man, haha).
I've also found myself really challenged in how much I believe. I've realized just how small my faith is. And how much more room I have to grow.
I won't even get into the craziness that is work right now. Between paperwork, long days at work, and such, work is crazytown right now. But it's a good crazy, especially with such an awesome team of people I get to work with.
I've also been doing a lot of dreaming. Thinking about where/what I want to teach in the upcoming years. Where I want to be. The people/places I want to photograph. The people I want to meet and visit. The things I want to do.
I've started to actually live as opposed to waiting for a relationship or a job or an education. And am actually walking the walk and not just talking the talk.
So that's where my heart is right now. Where is YOUR heart right now? Are you a fan of the hearty posts? Do you have a hard time writing/publishing them to your blog?