April 13, 2015
BELIEVE CHECK-IN | MARCH.
Maybe it's just hormones, but every so often I get really down-in-the-dumps about my appearance. I'll look in the mirror in the mornings and hate how my jeans don't fit. How my shirt is fitted at just the wrong places. How my face still manages to host a breakout. And how my hair doesn't shine but my lovely face does after a long day of work.
I've always been hard on myself. I'm more than capable of encouraging and lifting others up, but when it comes to myself, I honestly have a really hard time finding worth in my appearance.
I know this isn't a new concept for women, and I'm not writing this for sympathy or a flood of "but you're so beautiful!" in the comments. Nope, I'm writing this simply because I hope I'm not the only one (as this wise friend wrote in her own post).
So to say that this month's challenge to believe was easy, would be an understatement. I'm starting to believe more in terms of my relationship with Christ, but I'm failing in terms of my relationship and love for myself.
Not too long ago, Jenna shared this Dove commercial on Facebook and I knew that it couldn't have come with better timing.
These past few weeks, the lies that I've been telling myself each morning and night have turned into truths. Truths that my mind cannot separate fact from fiction. And it's rough.
Rough because I know that I was created for a purpose. That God created us uniquely, with purpose, and with so much value.
But the lies? They're overpowering me and they're making it hard for me to believe those truths.
So I'm not going to say that I've overcome and have learned to believe in my value, because to be honest, I still haven't. I'm still wading through the lies and am trying to be kinder to myself and my body.
Trying to find more positives in the negatives and more truths that are being buried by lies.
I refuse to let sin win. And I want the Truth to prevail.
I just need to start believing it.