If I had to describe 2015 into one year, I'd honestly say it was a tough one. I was challenged in many more ways than I ever imagined, but I also grew through all of it. I learned more about myself, who I am, and who I am not that I have in a long time.
This past month, I learned that life isn't about me. I always thought of myself as humble (haha, well isn't that an oxymoron in and of itself?) but I was truly humbled this month as I read through SheReadsTruth's Fruit of the Spirit study. That study taught me so many things about myself, but more importantly, about Jesus.
This month I learned that I need to believe that life isn't about me. It's not about my plans or my wants. It's not about my pain or my victories.
It's about HIM. He deserves all the glory, all the praise, and all the credit. It's because of His plans, His love, and His grace that I am who I am today.
And I need to not only believe it but live it out, too.
The fruits of the Spirit--love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control--are all fruits of the SPIRIT, not me.
They're not things that I produce, not things that I can create, nor are they things that I am without Jesus.
It's only through Jesus that I can FIND peace and joy and self-control. It's only though Him that I can trust and believe and find hope. It's only through Him that I can see what it means to love.
It's not about me, but about Him.
And I pray that I remember that for the rest of this year.