It's a new year and all I'm thinking about is quitting--I'm off to a great start, right? I feel like I need to preface this post by saying that I'M NOT ACTUALLY QUITTING. I'm not sure if any of you would actually care, but I'm not.
So now that I've gotten that out of the way, I need to be honest and tell you that I have thought about it. My presence is pretty much non-existent these days, seeing as I've been blogging maybe once a week, if at all. And while it's something I wish wasn't true, it's just the case now with work and such.
And I've wondered if people would actually miss me if my blog just up and disappeared. I'd like to think people would, but I also know that there are tons of other blogs out there, many of which blog at a higher frequency than I do, and the likelihood that life would come to a stand-still if I quit are close to none.
But I can't actually imagine myself without this community and creative outlet. It's where I've learned so much more about myself, about life, and about faith. My heart has had so many checks with posts and comments you write and my eyes have been opened to life outside of my corner of the PNW. Tears have been shed and prayers have been sent up, too.
It's weird to think that someday I will likely find that I've outgrown this blog. I believe there are seasons for everything and I don't know how much longer my blog will be a part of it (this is NOT foreshadowing, just honest thinking, by the way). I wonder what will lead me to this in life and how old I'll be. Will it be when I have kids and no don't want to share photos of them online? Will it be when I'm too busy with work and family and life? Will it be when I'm 50 years old? Or next year?
And I wonder when and if that will ever be the case.
It's weird to think about, because in a way, it's like the death of my blog. And because it is such a huge part of my life, it's weird for me to even think about.
Which is why I'm blogging about it and asking you if you ever think about it. Do you ever think about quitting? What would make you quit? How old you would be? Or do you not let your mind go there? Do you find yourself attached to your blog? I'd love to hear your thoughts!
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