You know those moments when you find something that you just know was written or said to you at just the right moment? As much as those moments weird me out, they are some of my most favorite moments, because they remind me that God is everywhere and yet also right beside me.
I was reading through one of Morgan Harper Nichols' daily emails a few weeks ago and her words spoke right to my heart:
"So take heart, in this season. Over everything that was broken, let your tired heart be open to the possibility of what could be: even here you are free to dream. You are free to trust and believe that in moving forward, you will find: there is so much more to see.
Allow yourself to keep dreaming, no matter what has yet to come together.
No matter your fears, no matter your failures, allow yourself to dream.
Let yourself begin to see: there is still room for new beginnings."
And that's when I realized that over the past couple years, I have unintentionally closed myself off from dreaming.
By telling people I was done with dating (which, let me just say, the frustration is real!), I was also telling myself that there really aren't any good guys left out there.
By telling myself that I'd never be able to make up my mind on what to do with the rest of my life, I gave up my dream of pursuing a Masters degree.
By telling myself that I shouldn't invest in a new camera, I resisted the idea of taking more photos professionally.
By telling myself I could/would never leave my job, I pushed away the desire to pursue foster care/adoption.
By telling myself I wasn't experienced and educated enough, I stomped out the possibility of pursuing a different career and vocational calling.
By telling myself I couldn't lose any more weight, I gave up trying out new workouts and routines.
Sadly, I let a lot of dreams die in my heart these past few years. I started to believe the lies and let those lies drown out the little girl inside of me with big dreams and a motivation to invest in myself and my future.
I think there's a part of all of us (as adults) that laughs at the ideas of having dreams. We reach a point in our lives where we think we're too old to dream and that we have to buckle down and just be an adult already. At least I think that's the lie that started me down that slippery slope.
But who said I can't dream? Who said I can't try new things--especially the new, scary, yet exciting things? Who said I can't start something new, even though I'm nearing thirty?
We live in a world that's constantly changing, telling us who to be, what to wear, what to say, what to eat, and what to do. But we also live in a world full of possibility and because this world is constantly changing, we can change with it, too.
Friend, I don't know where you're at right now, I don't know what dreams you've pushed back in your mind/heart, but I hope you know it's never too late to start.
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