A friend texted me the other day and asked how I'm doing. It took me a hot minute to decide how to answer because I feel like my responses have been pretty canned lately. Do I answer honestly or do I answer with a quick "good!" and move on with my day?
2020 has been a year of waiting so far and it's been hard to articulate with authentic joy and hope when I feel stuck and unsure. I was talking to someone about it in January and mentioned how I feel like my life feels hallmarked by waiting. Because here I am, waiting yet again. In 2019, I felt led to make some changes and take a leap outside of my comfort zone and while I wish everything came together with ease and speed, it's taken lots of baby steps, prayer, mentor sessions, and oh yeah, faith so far.
All that to say, I guess I just want to say that you're not alone. Every time I talk about a waiting season, I'm reminded that everyone is waiting for something. We're waiting for a test result. Or a loved one to return. We're waiting for a ring on a finger or a text message or phone call. We're waiting for an answer or for eternity in heaven.
So what am I doing in the in-betweens? I'm trying to live my life now, which is easier than it seems. Trying to savor what could be the "lasts" in my workplace (more on that later!). Trying to soak up time with loved ones and friends. Trying to get excited about change and new adventures that have yet to be discovered. Trying to trust that God's got everything under control and that He's doing everything for my good and His glory. And trying to extend grace upon myself because I know that in everything I do, I'm trying my best--even if it doesn't seem fruitful in the moment.
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