April 22, 2019

TWO QUESTIONS FOR TODAY.


What's keeping you small? What would you do if you weren't afraid? 

Gahhhh. Those two questions get me every. single. time. And as I read them and then re-read them, my mind jumps to a million different possible answers.

I'm trying to get back to my journaling roots and have loved coming across various prompts via podcasts, Pinterest, Instagram, and magazines. Recently, these two questions popped up and I couldn't help but let them soak in.

So here are my answers:

1. What's keeping me small? Fear. Mostly fear of the unknown and fear of rejection. But when it comes down to it, it's my fears that prevent me from stepping out in faith and just going for it.

2. What would I do if I wasn't afraid? I'd move and buy a house. I would quit my job (gasp!). And I'd go back to school full-time or start fostering kids. Doing all three at once really scares me--that's a whole lot of change, if you ask me--but they're all big dreams of mine that I want to pursue in the future. If I wasn't afraid, I'd say those hard words. Speak my mind and voice my contrasting opinions. And I'd ask guys out on dates (which is probably the scariest one of all).

The thing that those answers all have in common is that I prevent myself from conquering these fears. I have a limited view of both myself and God. I have this lie that the Enemy whispers in my ear that I'm not good enough. Not smart enough. Not brave enough. And that God isn't going to bring goodness into my life.

When it comes down to it, I know that the only way I'll get past these fears is if I strengthen my faith and walk out in that faith--fully knowing that God is in control. That God IS good. And that He wants what's best for me, even if it doesn't feel like it in the moment. And while these truths may seem child-like, that's exactly the type of faith I want to have. The faith of a child, who boldly speaks with honesty, who asks for what she wants, and lives life true to herself.

© IN ITS TIMEMaira Gall