October 15, 2018

BY FAITH, NOT SIGHT.


I'm a very visual person. I learn best by writing and re-writing notes, visually remembering where I wrote information on a piece of paper or where I read it on a page in a textbook. Decorating and designing and scrolling through pretty blogs are some of my favorite things to do when I'm bored. And I love seeing life through my camera lens and it's why Instagram is my favorite social media platform.

All that to say, I find it much easier to appreciate what's right in front of me. I think that's partially why I get so stuck in the past sometimes. The memories are vivid, so real in fact, that I have a tendency to look back at them with rose-colored glasses that cloud out the present and future. And if you can imagine, getting stuck in the past all too often prevents me from envisioning the future, especially since the future is unknown.

Lately, I've felt this tug to examine how I view faith in my life, especially in terms of how I view the past, present, and future with it.

And I have to say, it was eye-opening to realize that I've been putting faith and comfort in the same box. That's not to say that faith won't bring comfort and peace, but rather, that faith often asks us to leave our comfort zone and get uncomfortable for the sake of our growth and His glory.

It's much easier for me to define faith in terms of what I know and believe. I know that Jesus died on the cross for me. I know that He loves me. And I know that He is the Creator and Author of my life story.

But I wrestle with trusting and having faith in what that entails, what He's got in store for me, and what my next steps should be.

In other words, I walk by sight, not faith. 

And I want to change that. I want to choose faith. Choose the unknown. Choose to take a step and try that thing that scares me. And get comfortable with the uncomfortable and unknown.

Because if I want to discover, if I long for adventures, and if I want change (which I do, even though it doesn't sound like it!), then I have to be willing to do something instead of sitting in this little comfort zone I've created for myself. 



© IN ITS TIMEMaira Gall